Hold my hand here. Hold on tight. It’s all going to be OK.
The overwhelming feeling of utter collapse and devastation of all worldly love and pleasures is what seems to be happening. It’s showing up to be faced and leaned into now.
There was running towards people believing they would love you, and there was running away from the people believing they betrayed you. But in the end, it’s all for naught. No external appearance can love or fear. No object is really an object. No appearance is a separate appearance. Everything is part of the whole. No part can bring solace. No appearance can make good on any promise. No one can bring consolation when there is only inconsolability. I am here to tell you, “Nothing in this world of separation can bring you solace”. Nothing. It’s not its function to save you. This is the end. You can’t believe in anything or anyone anymore. Believe in your Present Pause. Believe in your Silent Being. All your reaching out to others for guidance or entertainment is a dead end. No one can give you what you already have. No one has the answer for you. You’ve tried everything. Hundreds of retreats and groups. You’ve gone everywhere, all around the world. Even the guru of gurus showed you a “turn around” sign.

See this new way of seeing as the great unveiling. Recognize that this is just what’s appearing to happen, and there isn’t anyone inside that body here or over there.

It’s ok to be walking through the valley of the shadow of death, knowing there is nothing that can be done; no object to hold onto, no activity to satisfy, no substance to sustain, no higher state of mind to enlighten, and no special relationship to have and to hold.

This is it! Emptiness in its fullness sense of the word.

Lean into total Aloneness. Feel its message. Don’t believe your believed beliefs about it. Be this emptiness without grasping for an interpretation. Breathe and pause when aloneness comes. Feel it completely. Surrender into it with curiosity. Stop resisting its call. Stop trying to escape. There’s no where you need to be except right here now. Feeling. Breathing. Expanding. Contracting. Releasing. Listening. There’s nothing to run from. There’s nothing to fear. There’s nobody to run to. There’s actually nowhere or no one anywhere already. This is it. This is YOU remembering YourSelf. This is all there is. It’s all going to be ok.

Everything IS, already, ok.

When the ‘I’ was not given the opportunity to think, feel and relate within its own inner frame of reference; and it was repeatedly bombarded by the divided reality of the “authority of other” on what the ‘I’ should think, feel and how it should relate, then that ‘I’ silently began to suffer from the inside out.
Why suffer now?
Because after decades and decades of sacrifice & suffering for simple recognition from other, this ‘I’ now lives with the impossibility of ever getting it. But at the same time, it has forgotten its own inner frame of authority of the Friend.

Exiling the idea of “authority of other” from the mind & heart means facing a great disturbance and disruption to the ‘I’. It also means a complete annihilation of the very idea of ‘I’.

The ‘I’ now stands at a crossroad, at an edge of a cliff, holding on to the inner authority of The Friend.
It is ready to plunge the poisoned mind and depleted heart into the Great Unknown; allowing the Friend to reset its entire Being back to truth; back to the One Reality before any idea of ‘outer authority’ ever came to be.

Verily I say unto thee:

Of all men,

the most negligent,

is the conflicted one;

easily provoked

and quick to engage in deceptive languaging,

in the grandiose attempt to rise above

the archonic programming of unworthiness.

O Divine Sparks!

Let your awakened deeds

not pompous words,

be your adorning.

Bahá’u’lláh

In the Garden of thy Heart,

Plant naught but the trustworthy

Rose of Self-Reunion;

And from the nightingale

Of wisdom & devotion,

loosen not thy hold.

Treasure the Ever-Protective,

All-Loving Reality of Peace.

And do not allow the ungodly,

gaslighting operation of unworthiness,

Have you divide yourself,

And lose access to your Peerless Pearl.

For a divided state,

would have you suffer

And would keep you,

perpetually powerless,

Lost & confused,

in fear-obligation-guilt (FOG).

When I feel shamed, wronged and silenced by the narrative of others, I feel judged for who I am. (archonian programming)

I am then unable to show my true feelings in fear of appearing divisive in their eyes, so I judge in secret. (more archonian programming)

I then live in my own shame and guilt for not being able to remove my silent judging, as long as judging is there. (more archonian programming)

I now sit in silence and welcome my own judging feelings. I listen to them with compassion. (divine spark awakening)

What are they trying to tell me?

They say that they just want to be free to be.

They say they feel abandoned and betrayed by me.

They say they will no longer be made to feel responsible for the shame, obligations & guilt placed upon them.

They say that they are angry for having been made the scapegoat of hate & division.

They say they feel violated for being forced to agree & follow a frame of reference unlike their own.

They say they are exhausted for having judged for so long in trying to get my attention.

I say in response,

“I hear you, dearest feelings”. (Spark awakening)

“Judge if that’s what you need to do, whenever you feel it.”

“Feel angry when you’re angry.”

“Feel hurt when you’re hurt.”

“Claim permission to state your truth.”

“I’m sorry. Please forgive me.”

“I hear you and I want to be your trusted servant & friend.”

“I am here now to listen and advocate for all you have to say.”

“I will no longer resist you as you are.”

“I am discarding all misaligned psyop narratives that would have me shame & silence you.”

“Thank you for not giving up on me.”

“I love you .”

True forgiveness is at hand.

If any of the following get triggered in self or other…, pause, breathe and simply and calmly be real in every moment in your reality.

Think, feel, behave and relate by recognizing what is real within you, in every moment.

1. False Significance – I seek recognition from the projection for the all ways I make a significant difference in the projection. 

True Significance- I make a difference in the projection by recognizing who my real self is in every moment.

I am Self-Significance ItSelf.

2. False Acceptance – I seek to give to the projection what it wants in order to feel loved & accepted by the projection. 

True Acceptance: I give and accept to myself by simply bringing real in every moment.

I am Self-Acceptance ItSelf. 

3. False Approval – I seek encouragement & validation from the projection to relieve me of my fear of separation, uncertainty & doubt in the projection. 

True Approval- I recognize and approve of  being real with myself to get me through my fear of separation, uncertainty & doubt. 

I am Self-Approval ItSelf.

4. False Intelligence – I seek recognition from the projection for all my acquired spiritual knowledge of the projection. 

True Intelligence- I recognize that all I truly gain is the knowledge of who I really am in every moment.

I am Self-Intelligence ItSelf.

5. False Pity- I seek recognition from the projection for how much and for how long I have sacrificed and suffered in the projection. 

True Humility- I sacrifice the need to seek recognition for my suffering and recognize who I really am in every moment.

I am Self-Humility ItSelf.

6. False Strength/Power -I seek recognition from the projection of my power and strength by controlling and manipulating the projection.  

True Strength/Power- I recognize and honour my self-control in order to gain the power of who I really am in every moment.

I have Self-Control. 

Conclusion: it is hopeless & futile to seek the Real in a false projection.

The solution is in, first, seeing the doubt, then owning. Feel it without judging it. It doesn’t define you.

Doubting is a result of believing in the lie that you need to qualify the worth you already are.

Unowned doubt keeps you doubting your true worth and keeps you from owning your True Worth. You seek outside approval and allow others to control you because you doubt your own self worth. You hide more, agree more, understand more, excuse more, explain more, function more, control more, consume more, promote more, advise more, manipulate more, convince more, achieve more, praise more, produce more, justify more, do more.

See through those lies & violations that want to make you doubt your own self-worth. They want to measure you and determine whether or not you are worthy of their approval. They want you to believe you need qualifiers and quantifiers to feel worthy.

Own that feeling of unworthiness.

Own that feeling of being labelled “unqualified”.

Own that feeling of being labelled “unquantified.”

It doesn’t define or confine the shining reality that YOU already are.

You are Whole & Worthy, regardless of what or how much you do or don’t do.

In other words, LOVE ALL PIECES OF YOU.
Own it all: the good, the bad, the flawed, the confused, the secretive, the ugly, the ordinary, the quaking, the crazy, the doubting, the rebellious, the roaring, the shaming, the silly, the nerdy, the crazy, the stubborn, the stupid, the special.

You’re much more than that, and still undefined by it all.

“Abandon not the everlasting beauty for a beauty that must die, and set not your affections on this mortal world of dust.”

Bahá’u’lláh

The Hidden Words – Persian (p.14)

Remain unwaveringly steadfast in the Sanctuary of the Peaceful Heart.

Protect your Wellbeing, its peace & security, from the ungodly gaslighting trappings which seek to steal away your Inner Compass.

Beware should the stranger arise to offend you into the need to attack, provoke you into the need to defend, gaslight you into the need to fear & doubt, or threaten you into separating from the Sanctuary of the Peaceful Heart.

Fear not your Intuitive Indicator Light warning you to protect your Sanctuary.

Abandon all engagement with that which is blind and deaf to the Sanctuary of the Peaceful Heart.

Reject not the Friend for a phantom corpse that will die.

Set not your affections on defending-attacking this mortal world of dust.

Emotional pain is inevitable. The fear that it is your enemy and means something unworthy or not good about you, will make you resist it and find a scapegoat to place it onto. You ‘believe’ you’re worthy & good, and that you don’t ‘deserve’ the inflicted pain, but there’s an unhealed part of you in pain that doesn’t believe it’s worthy of love, so it is that part that brings the pain to you, so you can finally own it and set it free. Do you see?

Instead of viewing pain as the enemy to resist, control or outrun, surrender to it & allow it to be felt completely. It has a great gift. Welcome it. It brings the gift of forgiveness. It brings the remembrance of the Wholeness & Innocence that you already are.

Suffering is the perpetual resistance to owning that banished part of you in pain because of the meaning of unworthiness and threat you gave it; so it stays repressed and banished to hell. Let go of the misunderstood pain of separation that gets covered up with false narratives.

When unowned pain gets triggered and resurfaces, the belief that it’s a threat gets activated too. That belief feels so intolerable that you immediately reject the pain and take control to get rid of it. You blame it on a world of your making, with the intent to feel better about yourself. This keeps you bound and confused as to why you never feel whole just as you are.

In this state, you unconsciously control the narrative as it suits you in order to keep that “pain of unworthiness” in hell. But that banishment haunts you. You reactively manipulate, minimize , rationalize , justify or spiritualize the pain of your reality and the reality of others in order to keep that original judgement out of awareness.

The solution to be free of the lies of unworthiness is available to you in the trigger. Lean into the pain, and remember its innocence. See through the lie that tells you the pain is a threat that you must fight, fawn or flee from to make it go away. Do the opposite. Own it. Welcome the pain. Give yourself permission to reunite with it. It’s not your enemy. It’s the Friend. The Gift of Confirmation will come in the non-resistance. The revealing of the truth of your Wholeness & Power shall set you free of any more deception.

“The well-being of the reality of man, it’s peace and security, is unattainable, unless & until its unity is fully established”. Baha’u’llah

Summary of blog by Tina Fey – Blogger

It’s a thin line between friendship and manipulation. That line is all about intent.

Manipulators, disguised as friends, have a knack for making you do what they want while concealing their ulterior motives & private agendas.

It’s a lot like having a wolf dressed in sheep’s clothing – they act like your best friend but they are the stranger secretly manipulating you.

These ‘friends’ often exhibit certain subtle behaviors that give them away. And if you’re smart, you’ll pick up on these signs early on.

1) They spin the truth

These ‘friendly’ manipulators are masters at spinning tales. They weave their narrative so skillfully that it’s hard to distinguish fact from fiction. “Selling their spin” is their way of controlling the narrative and framing you in the direction they want. It’s subtle, it’s strategic, and most importantly, it’s deceptive.

2) They always play the victim

They are never at fault, never responsible for their actions. And they use their  ‘victim’ status to distract & get what they want. It is always about their problems, their feelings, their wins, their life.

They attempt to make you feel guilty if you ever try to share your own problems or if you’re not there for them at their beck and call. Your needs and feelings come secondary to theirs.

They’re not just seeking support; they are manipulating you into prioritizing them above everything else.

3) They’re experts at guilt-tripping

They use guilt as a tool to maintain power in the relationship, ensuring you feel indebted to them.

4) They constantly belittle your achievements

These individuals have a knack for minimizing & dismissing your insights, inspirations, ideas, connections, accomplishments.

This constant belittling is their way of keeping you in check & faithful to a false sense of unworthiness like them; ensuring that you never feel too confident or self-assured. After all, if you start remembering your own inherent worth, you might just realize that you deserve better than their “friendship”.

5) They’re always testing & violating your boundaries

For the manipulative ‘friend’, your boundaries are merely ‘lines to cross’ without the negative consequences.

They constantly push the limits to see how far they can go.

This is a strategic move. By gradually eroding your boundaries, they gain more autonomy over you and the relationship.

Remember, it’s not scary to set boundaries – it’s ESSENTIAL & KIND. And anyone who continually disrespects them is not acting in your honour.

6) They’re never truly happy for you

They quickly change the subject or subtly downplay your good news. Or perhaps there’s a hint of jealousy in their eyes. This lack of genuine happiness for your joys, connections & successes is a telltale sign of manipulation.

7) They use your secrets against you

You notice that your secrets are being used against you. Your vulnerabilities are brought up during arguments, used as weapons to hurt you or make you feel small.

This kind of betrayal cuts deep. It’s a clear sign of manipulation and a blatant abuse of trust.

8) They’re always the center of attention

Whether it’s a group conversation or a one-on-one chat, they somehow manage to steer the topic back to themselves. They crave the spotlight and will do whatever it takes to keep it shining on them.

This need for constant attention can leave you feeling unheard and unimportant. It’s a subtle form of manipulation designed to keep you in their shadow.

If someone always insists on being more significant & important (or advising you to get more significant & important) they’re likely hiding their own insecurities than interested in a true connection with you.

9) They make you question your own frame of reality

The most dangerous form of manipulation is called gaslighting – a psychological tactic where a person makes you doubt or downplay your own preferences, perceptions, or memories.

The goal is to destabilize your direct sense of reality, making you question your own boundary lines.

This is not just manipulation; it’s a form of emotional hyjacking. And it’s important to recognize it for what it is.

No one has the right to undermine and steal your experiences or trample on your feelings. Trust & honour your own feelings and your own perceptions. You know your reality better than anyone else.