I am not an object. I am not your object of addiction or anyone else’s. I am not an object that you believe you possess that you believe you can use (or abuse) whenever you “need” me, to distract yourself from the discomfort of your own intolerable feelings. Whether those feelings include restlessness, boredom, loneliness, or the well-known painful yearning to be seen, heard, loved and understood; I am not that object. I am not an object for anyone’s feelings of lack or fear. I am not an object for the temporary release of your unpleasant feelings. I am not an object with which you can use to mask your suffering in hopes to end your suffering. As an object, I am not your answer. As an object, you are not my answer. See that neither of us are in need of temporary relief. You and I share the same Unlimited Eternal Being. I am My own permanent answer, and You are Your own permanent answer. This is the True Love we share.

Believing myself a form,

I see only forms.

I know only fear.

I limit the intimate experience of myself

To the only activity I know;

‘Avoiding the discomfort of intolerable feelings’

Like enemies to be buried.

I repress them, suppress them, hide them;

I know not that the very distance from them

Is my very suffering

So, I persistently seek in their place,

The acquisition of some loving, understanding, or beautiful feeling;

Just to find out,

It won’t be long

For those buried forms to rise again;

To haunt my activities,

Of hiding and seeking.

 

Attraction is intimately known. Repulsion is intimately known. Desire is intimately known. Resistance is intimately known. Wanting is intimately known. Not-wanting is intimately known. In truth, none of these “knowns” bare the slightest difference from each other. One is no different than the other. They are exactly the same in that they are all equally & intimately “known”, and therefore, to be equally honoured in the same way. There is but One Known in reality: I am this Known; Self-Known; Pure Infinite Knowing. There is no other known but Me, the One Knowing. I am free to feel and know any desire in Me & free to feel and know any resistance in Me. I know them both as Love. In feeling them freely, I have all the information I need to act & relate accordingly. But, if I don’t know MySelf; if I live in fear and hiding, just to relate with you as a limited “loving emotion and agreeable appearance”, I would need to “go-against” and deny the vast array of feelings that arise in Me. But, why would I do such a thing now that I know what I am?
There is no sane reason. Denial of MySelf is madness. I am the Truth. I am the Love. I am Happiness. I am Happy when I am MySelf.

The purpose of the Unlimited Ever-Present Knowing is for me to know the unlimited, ever-present knowing in myself, as Myself. Knowing extends Itself as Its own Known creation.  This is also known as Knowing. There is only one known Knowing and one known Known. It is the same Knowing that I know. Unlimited, Ever-Present Knowing renders Itself knowable in my knowing. It’s the same Knowing. There is no other Knowing but Pure Knowing. In order to know myself as Pure Unlimited Knowing, I must allow the Knowing to infiltrate the current ‘objective’ experience (called by thought as ‘thinking-feeling-sensing-perceiving’) until Pure Knowing is experienced and known as the one and only indivisible experience in Reality; called by no other name but Pure Nameless Knowing.

When I don’t make my stand as knowing myself this Way, I become lost in a limited belief about myself, ignorantly engaging in temporary pleasure-seeking & pain-resisting activities, believing in concepts such as the body, mind & world. The natural consequence to believing in concepts is the perpetual activity of separating and suffering. So, when I begin to understand Myself to be the Unlimited Ever-Present Knowing, all there is to experience is the non-objective experience of Peace & Happiness. 

All I need to know is on whose behalf I am acting and relating. All I need to know is what is informing my experiences and decisions to act.  

I am deciding & acting on behalf of belief when I am experiencing fear, doubt, separation & suffering within Myself.

I am deciding & acting on behalf of Pure Knowing when I am experiencing Peace & Happiness. Simply knowing to decide and act on behalf of Pure Knowing is My One Happiness.

The separating activity of ‘doubting and questioning’ disappears when it is understood clearly that all there is to the experience of thinking is pure knowing. This is known as Wisdom.  

The separating activity of ‘longing & resisting’ disappears when it is felt clearly that all there is to the experience of feeling-sensing is pure knowing.  This is known as Love.

The separating activity of ‘comparing/contrasting’ disappears when it is seen clearly that all there is to the experience of seeing-hearing-tasting-touching-smelling is pure knowing. This is known as Beauty.

Knowing Pure Knowing as what I am, collapses belief, is understood as Truth, and known as Wisdom, celebrated in written & spoken language.

Knowing Pure Knowing as what I am, collapses belief, is felt as Happiness & Peace, and known as Love, celebrated in relationship. 

Knowing Myself as Pure Knowing, collapses belief , is perceived as Beauty, known as Beauty, celebrated using the objects of perception. This is known as artistic expression. 

True Identity belongs to Knowing. There is no other ‘Identity’ in experience that can take the position of Knowing because Knowing is all there is in any experiential position. There can be no other Position or Identity to know from any other position. Knowing is Its Own Position; even from the illusory position of ‘thought’ that has named Knowing by other names (mind, body, world). What is thought anyways? It can’t take the position of knowing; that would make two positions of Knowing. No, that is a misconception & misunderstanding of Identity. Look at a thought.  It can’t, in itself, take the position of Knowing, because it is known. I know thought. Thought does not know Me. The one & only Identity that can take the Position of Knowing is Knowing Itself.  No thought, sensation or perception can take its own knowing position, because, the Knowing Identity is always present, being Itself, knowing Its Own Position. When the Knowing Identity withdraws its attention from a named experiential position, such as an “I-thought’, that position disappears.

From the Position of the Knowing Identity, Knowing never knows its own disappearance. Knowing is Ever-Present. There is no other position that is real. It cannot appear or disappear. It cannot change, and It cannot know or be known by any other Identity. There is no other Identity. Therefore, the essential nature, (and the only nature) of experience is that it is known, and the Identity of Knowing can only know that. I am That Identity. 

Identity belongs to Knowing, therefore, the ‘I-thought’ cannot stand in a different position as a separate identity.  That is impossible. I, Knowing, knowing that I know my experience, take the only Position that is real.  I am Knowing. “I am” is the one and only True Identity. Being neither nothing or something, Knowing stands alone as Everything. 

There is no separate “I” or “other”. There is no Identity to know, no Position to know, no experience to know, other than Knowing. This is what Knowing wants ‘me’ (the believer of I) to know. There is truly nothing else to know. Know this.

Knowing is the Light that renders Itself knowable. Knowing is only known to Itself. When I declare “I”, I am not referring to the I-thought. Rather, I am referring to Knowing. I am known to Myself. Experience is not something other than Knowing, since all experience is known. I am known, known to MYSELF.

Knowing is the only element in Reality that has the power to Know. Therefore, I stand as Knowing.  Knowing is all that is known. Any “thing” known has no independent identity apart from Knowing, for Knowing is the only Identity to experience. Even the content & stories of experience need to be seen in their Reality. They are known. To overlook this, is to overlook the Identity of Knowing. 

In this ‘overlooking’ of True Identity, attention arises. Thoughts of ‘self & other’ appear. ‘Objects’ appear. These can look complex and confusing. For example:

Not knowing what the nature of fear is, one distances from it. This distance gives rise to objects of threat & punishment. These give rise to more fear, which give rise to feelings of inadequacy and diminishment. These give rise to the desire & compulsion to seek for emotional and physical safety. The fearful thought “I”, seeks for safety in distancing itself from the object of threat & punishment, or in seeking for safety in objects of love & understanding. It’s believed that this perceptual “validation” will get rid of the fear (which it doesn’t).  It only keeps the contracted sensations, the fearful feelings and perceived threat at bay. 

When Identity takes the Pure Position of Knowing, fear dissolves into Love, ignorance and confusion dissolve into Understanding, and the ugliness of conflict, control, oppression & poverty dissolve into Beauty. What were known as ‘intolerable’ are looked upon with the Love & Understanding of Truth.  There is no need to distance from any feeling or state of mind. I am the Knowing that allows the distance from what was unknown to become known.  Confusion is now True Knowledge. Death is now Life. Fear is now Love. Resistance and longing are now Peace & Happiness. There are no rules of behavior to perpetuate. There is no feeling so frightening, no sensation so daunting, that I can’t face it and know it intimately, directly as It truly is… Love.  

Taking the Stand & Position as the Knowing Identity is an unconditional “YES” to the Safety and Freedom that is Mine Alone.  

 

Divine Correction is to understand the error of identity; which is the error of reality.

The Error of Identity/Error of Reality: “I am a temporary ‘object’ in continuous time with a ‘conscious-mind’ seeking and avoiding other temporary objects of experience in order to find fulfillment in an ever-changing world in permanent space.

Correction: I am the Knowing of  ‘errors and corrections’; errors and corrections being known in experience.  The direct experience of thinking, ‘believing’, sensing & perceiving is lit up with the Light of knowing. It is the Light of Knowing that is known not the objects of experience.  The Light of Knowing is known by nothing other than the Knowing Itself.  I am the only one who can know and who does know the fact that I know Myself, Knowing.

I am the Ever-Present, Changeless, Formless, Limitless Knowing out of which the intermittent experience of thinking-sensing-perceiving is known, but in which its content tells a story where a ‘continuous-time-like, past-future body-mind resides.

I am the Ever-Present, Changeless, Formless, Limitless Knowing out of which the intermittent experience of thinking-sensing-perceiving is known, but in which its content tells a story where an ‘unlimited-like, space-like’ perceptual world & universe reside.

To know Myself & to know Reality is to abide in the Knowing of experience; not the content of experience (the stories that thoughts tells about pure experience)  I look not to content, concepts or qualities of experience to know Myself or Reality.  I only look at experience as Pure Knowing Itself. It is the one and only element that shines in Reality. It is what I am.

It is My known experience that I am ever-present (eternal). I never intimately or directly experience my own appearance or disappearance.

It is My known experience that I am unlimited (infinite). I never intimately or directly experience Myself changing.  I am always known to Myself by the same knowing  that I am known by.

It is My known experience that I never know something other than Knowing.

It is also My known experience that I am never known by something other than Myself.

The Reality of Myself is Knowing. The Knowing of Myself is Reality. I am the Knowing of Reality. I am the Reality of Knowing.

I allow the Divine Correction to wash all error from existence.

All knowing is the same knowing known in all known experience.

 

 

To allow ‘desire’ to seek objective experience is to perpetuate pain and suffering. I am looking for something to relieve my feeling of desire. It’s a painful experience. The energy of desire is desperate in its search to be met with love & understanding. It believes there is yet another ‘person, place, or thing’ to meet it,  in order for ‘it’ to achieve happiness & contentment.  When I try to stop it, I see that it gets more and more intense, threatening me with words of pain and suffering if I disagree. But disagreeing or agreeing with desire is a dead end. It says I must submit & agree to becoming its partner in finding what it is looking for, AND, it is I that must help ‘it’ look for it. I am tired. I still see it desiring, and so, I go back being it’s slave once again. I really believe that there is actually something I am missing in this world, and I feel shame because I haven’t yet found it. I begin to compare myself with others. I begin to use deception or seduction with others pretending I am happy, and can make ‘them’ happy; but deep down knowing I don’t really have my heart in participating in these activities with them. I am trying to solve a problem for ‘desire’. A problem to solve. But the real problem is self-deception. I see that what I want is something objective to be excited about, but I eventually realize its a dead end. Nothing that is chased in this world makes desire go away forever. I merged with a belief of myself, seeing there was a problem in the desiring; then took it upon myself to get rid of it. But, if I use desire to get rid of desire, I use my power destructively and I suffer.

I’m shocked that this has been going on for so long.  I’m aware that I became a partner in crime with desire, going out into the world to find the object of desire, (thinking it was my desire) in order to end the suffering. But the very existence of desire, not knowing its true origin, IS the suffering. I, not knowing what I am, become the one reaching outward, seeking outward, looking outward, searching outward, wandering outward, analyzing, figuring, manipulating, validating, getting…..this is the activity of desire run wild. So, not knowing who I am, or what my function is,  go out and find what it is I’m looking for.

Other people tell me, and I eventually tell myself, that maybe what I’m looking for will be in exercise, moving the body, getting busy, volunteering, working at a service job, looking for adventure, working, playing, looking to buy something, sell something, improving myself, looking for conversation, looking to be alone, searching for yet another truth in a teaching or a book, attending spiritual meetings, travelling, going on retreats, dates, looking for attention from a man or friend that I can once-and-for-all connect with on a deeper level, and finally stop the suffering that haunts me: something I want, but do not have. I notice ‘desire’ forcing me to go and get it. But I know that to find something out there is not going to end desire at all, and if it does, it won’t last for long; I will eventually feel disappointment, my heart will break again, and the seeking will come back. Nothing I do, will bring desire to its final end. Attending to promises of happiness & fulfillment will not end the suffering. There are no objects of desire that will bring desire to its final end. And I render myself to yet another surrendering of this. It is desire itself that is the ‘trigger’ that gets my attention.

Desire itself does not know what it wants. It wants me to join with it, be its host, to go out and fulfill its never-ending ache. And so I do that, over and over again, believing that I am going to bring desire to an end. But now, after so many years, I know that outward seeking in order to end desire is pure insanity. It’s not the answer I seek. So, I decided to use desire for the spiritual path. I sought the truth in books, in workshops, retreats, YouTube videos. I still believed the truth was ‘out there’. I joined with spiritual communities to be happy with them. I pretended I was ‘desire-less’ and ‘serving’. I fought desire. I fought resistance. I tried to repress it, suppress it, but, in the end, it only increased my suffering. I ran for refuge in meditating and praying.

I concluded, desire can not be eradicated through being a spiritual person. Desire comes back. It’s feverish, and relentless, and it will not give its host any lasting relief. Looking outward to love, sex, marriage, children, pets, money, food, drink, drugs, gambling, investing, marketing, story-telling, adventures, travel, spiritual endeavors, thrill-seeking activities, is not truly the direction I want to go. So, after some searching as to what I could do with this desire, I began to write about it.

In the past, I catered to ‘desire’, trying to please it in others, so I could have it disappear in me. My one and only purpose for this desire thing, was to have it stop pestering me. I thought if I could meet other people’s desires, I could meet my desire, and we’d all be happy. But desire does not really live in others, it lives in me, and until it’s come to a final end in me, there can be no true lasting happiness. I am unhappy, because I forgot who I truly am, and I didn’t know what the heck to do with desire. But the noise never left for long being controlled by it or trying to control it. It’s like a small child having a temper tantrum. That, if it becomes vociferous and noisy, somebody will come to fill its bottomless-pit needs. No. This must stop. Desire will never ever ever, ever, ever stop by trying to meet ‘it’.  It must come and meet ME.

I am no longer at desire’s beck & call.  I am staying HOME now. This is called the Direct Path.  I am the Origin, the Path, and the Goal. With the Direct Path, I’ve come to see there is another way to see. It’s to inform desire, that ‘we’ve’ been looking in the wrong direction. We must turn around, and go back to where we came from. Only, I will stand as Awareness Itself, and I will be the open, empty knowing Space to welcome desire’s experience of suffering Home. I will invite the very thing I was trying to get rid of, (desire) and I will ‘love’ it, and allow it to grow in brightness & intensity. I will be the open, welcoming space of Awareness to invite the suffering of desire to merge and dissolve into ME. I am no longer going anywhere.  I am no longer going with anyone. I want to know what desire is truly made of. I want to know what desire truly feels like if I allow it up close and become truly intimate with it, without trying to alter or change it in any way. This is the Truth. Now that I have a clear understanding on what is really going on, I can have desire come to Me. I can be truly helpful to desire, and remember I am the One Awareness being aware of being aware. It’s a win-win situation.

I must take My Rightful Place with a direct, firm, but loving hand, and invite ‘desire’ from looking ‘outward’ (to people, places, things, events, concepts, etc) to looking ‘inward’ to Me, Pure Awareness. “I have a new purpose for you, desire”. You will no longer be my boss. I detach Myself from your misguided suggestions, promptings, persuasions, directions, orders, criticisms, suspicions, sarcasms, threats, ultimatums, dictates, viciousness. I quit catering over and over, trying to give you what you think you want. You are an ignorant, innocent child who hasn’t a clue what you want. But, I, Pure Awareness, love you, so I will not abandon you; neither will I continue to join in those insane destructive strategies of yours. I am in charge now. I am taking MY Rightful Stand as Pure Awareness. You can settle down and return to Me.  I need you now, to play the biggest part you’ve ever played. Its the perfect job for you. To go where ‘you’ are going, I need you to get super strong, and super intense. I want you to grow and grow and grow. This is your only function. I will meet you intimately and directly from My Still Placeless Place. I want you to shine your brightest. If it feels like pain, so be it.  I am the Container that contains all. It’s going to be amazing. You are going to come to Me; I will not be chasing you around. Out of all the things I needed desperately in this world, but failed to get right, was knowing what My job was with ‘desire’.  I allowed desire to string Me around.  Its time to reel desire in, in, in, into Myself now, knowing that I am Home.  I am the Still, Silent Infinite Space of Awareness inviting and allowing the energy of desire to merge and dissolve into Me.  I am the Peace & Happiness in which desire had been desiring all along. AMEN.

When the ‘knower’ self has the intuition & desire to take the stand as the KNOWING Itself, the ‘so-called’ content & qualities of  “the self & the other” or “the knower & the known” merge and dissolve into Himself, the Knowing.

When the ‘knower’ self has the intuition & desire to take the stand as the KNOWING Itself, then what ‘was’ known is ‘now’ known as one Knowing; the Knowing knowing Itself.

When the ‘knower’ self stands as the KNOWING Itself, the known ‘names & forms’ of experience is no longer known as something ‘other’ than Knowing.

I, KNOWING, am the one & only One Reality.

 

Dream state, waking state, heavenly state, hellish state, resistant state, blissful state, enlightened state, lonely state, seeking state, resigned state, shameful state, depressed state: all “states” or “dimensions” are known equally. Turn around and ask yourself the question, “states known are known by who”? Look deeply into what knows the known? “I” am the one that knows; but what am I?

Well, that which knows “known” states, cannot, itself, be a ‘state’.  You cannot be “something” other than the knowing that knows it. You are known unto Yourself. This means that You are the knowing knowing Knowing. You know Yourself alone. This is the Good News. It is the Knowing that knows the known because it is only the one Knowing that Knows Itself. The one Knowing is the only known. Be the knowing and indulge in Its inherent expressions of Peace & Happiness now. Why seek for a “happy” objective experience? Why try to avoid an unbearable objective experience? Both are known anyways. Look to the Knowing of experience, not to its ‘content’. The content of experience will always appear, disappear, and change. Allow the content to melt into one Knowing or else experience will predictably appear as both pleasurable and painful content. This is “known” in the following pattern.

A seeking state changes into a seeking activity which can change into a stressful state. A stressful state (unfulfilled) continues to be stressful until reaching an achievement state. An achievement state is a happy or fulfilled state. A happy state then changes into a restless or agitated state. These states turn into a sad, angry or lonely state. These states turn into a fearful state. A fearful state can change into a depressed state or a resistant shameful state. These states ultimately turns into the original seeking state because the state of depression or unworthiness is just too insufferable right? And the merry-go-round continues round and round. 

Is this what you truly desire… to continue seeking activities and objects in order to achieve a happy state? See that this is happening. Be the awareness of this awareness. Decide to step out of an ignorant identity, and know YourSelf as the “Knowing” ItSelf throughout all seeking states, happy states and sorrowful states; and yes, insufferable states. Stand in Your Truth, as Truth. Be the Knowing and watch the dream-life self; (an objectified experience believed to be a subject) merge & dissolve into You; Pure Infinite, Ever-Present Knowing.

Know that a “mind” is not a “mind” as it is conceived. A “mind” is simply belief, imagination, memory, conception, idea; and these are made of thought. Know that all there is to “thought” is the experience of thinking. Know that all there is to thinking is the knowing of it. All there is to the “it”, is Knowing.

Know that a “state of mind” or “emotion” (whether heavenly or hellish) is not a “state” as it is conceived. A “state” is simply thought & feeling. Know that all there is to “thought & feeling” is the experience of thinking-feeling. Know that all there is to thinking-feeling is the knowing of it. All there is to the “it”, is Knowing.

Know that a “body” is not a “body” as it is conceived. A “body” is simply sensation. Know that all there is to “sensation” is the experience of sensing. Know that all there is to sensing is the knowing of it. All there is to “it”, is Knowing.

Know that a “world” is not a “world” as it is conceived. A “world” is simply perception. All there is to “perception” (or a sight-sound-taste-touch-smell) is the experience of perceiving (or seeing-hearing-tasting-touching-smelling). Know that perceiving is made of the knowing of it. All there is to the “it”, is Knowing.

Know that “mind, state-of-mind, emotion, body or world” are not “its” in their own right, apart from the knowing of them. All they truly are is the experience of thinking-feeling-sensing-perceiving. Know that to know the experience of “thinking-feeling-sensing-perceiving” is to know knowing. Know that all that knowing “is”, is Knowing knowing Itself.

Know that “Knowing” is the single, indivisible, intimate, non-objective Reality that Knows ItSelf, by Itself.

Know “the Knowing” &  be “the Knowing”; not the over-looking of It by mixing Yourself with Its “activity”,  believing yourself to be  something other than Pure Knowing: (its so-called forms, names, qualities, content).

To know YourSelf as the Knowing Element (in experience) as the only Element in Reality is to understand Truth, feel & sense Peace, Happiness & Love; and perceive Beauty as “The Knowing” expressing ItSelf in “Being the Knowing”.