What caused all my suffering in life?
I figured out that all my suffering was due to, unknowingly, entering into a ‘bad’ friendship/relationship contract with a “false ally drain”, in which I upheld and stayed in, because of the belief, “I’m a happy, supportive, compromising, compliant-friendly” person.”
“People like me”.
“I’m safe and secure when I’m liked”.
Another belief was: “in order to have a friend, I have to be a friend.”
It never dawned on me that the rules of true friendship were about commanding self-respect, power and friendship within my true self and having that reflected back to me.
Attracting “false ally drains” are always a poor and powerless way to relate. Friendship is a two way street, where giving and receiving love is full of God’s mighty, powerful love.

I was never shown what to do when I felt my ‘dashboard resistance lights’ turn on.
I was never taught that when any inner resistance came up with someone, to recognize that as a “false ally drain”. But my false beliefs got in the way, that said, “I am to be understanding; giving of my time& energy to listen, validate and support someone’s special story”. In other words: “be open to their wants needs, & persuasions”. 🙄
My “open compliance” was actually a mistake I made in fear. I had no real boundaries. Staying boundary-less was the wrong choice, but I was not aware of that. The belief I held was that “friendliness, compliance and compromise” go together, and it was my friendly obligation to meet that person’s desires in order to be “their special friend”.
Compromising to a “false ally drain” was great for the false ally drain, but never did it make me feel great in the end. I was using them as much as they were using me. Since they were satisfied with getting my special energy, I believed I should be satisfied in getting something in return. But I never felt truly satisfied or special. I left feeling empty and, later, resentful & judgemental towards them.
My beliefs were actually causing me all the harm that I endured at my expense. It wasn’t about “them” at all.
Here’s how it works. First of all, I was to hold the premise that I need to comply with “false ally drains” when they want something from me. I am to believe their beliefs, agree with their interests, and support what they support. I am to falsely believe it is “my responsibility” to compromise in order to match their “seeking energy”; even if the “false ally drain” has no idea how to meet me, see me, or understand me as I am.
But all I was doing was suppressing my ‘gut feelings’ that silently screamed, “back away from that person!!!” And when I ignored that Inner Directive, I abandoned myself over and over again.

Whenever past “false ally drains” would seek my company, I instantly assumed I was the ‘lucky one’ to have them “want” me, (I felt special).
They had me believing we were an automatic match. I was always willing, ready, flexible, forgiving and open to agree.
This was a belief in specialness that I held of myself for a long, long time. I was afraid to ‘not be’ special to someone in their eyes. I now turn to God for true justice.

I falsely believed I needed to continue seeking special company with “false ally drains” in order to be more socially acceptable in their eyes. I was a walking “take advantage of me if you like. I won’t ever disagree with your views and beliefs!”
I believed it was my responsibility to make the other “comfortable” with me on their behalf. What they really needed from me, was my compliance, which I gave automatically, wholeheartedly and unquestionably. If I made the “false ally drain” happy, then I believed their special validation was all I needed in order to secure my special well-being.

What a crock of shit !!!!! 🤣😩
What a crock of shit !!!!! 😠😖

What a crock of shit !!!!! 🤯😂

What a crock of shit !!!!! 🤣
What a crock of shit !!!!! 😂😂

What a crock of shit !!!!! 😆🤣

What a crock of shit !!!!! 😁🤪

What a crock of shit !!!!! 🤯🥴

Well, now that I see all of this very clearly, and I am absolutely clear about who I am and what I want for myself in my own life, all “false ally drains” can go to hell; because that energy has no place in my life anymore and it has no place in my world. I set my godling allys free, because I love myself and I only want to be truly helpful.
I command it is so.
It is done.
It is done.
It is done.

I am the blessed, wholly witnessing Reality ItSelf, wholly independent from all witnessing states; and yet, wholly inseparable from any state.

Whether a state appears as ecstatic bliss, or dreadful depression,
I remain MySelf; unexalted, uncorrupted.

I use my power of ‘recognition’ to see how I have mis-used my power to create.
If I have ‘created’ from a divided state in which I am divided against MySelf, I can recognize, in that holy instant, how I have simply overlooked MySelf in my creating, and became attached to a mis-created, divided state; from which I either tried to possess, or from which I tried to escape.

I return to Myself.
My decision to detach and reset, and be here now, is My true escape; independent of any state.

This decision is but a simple, gentle recognition of MySelf that does not depend or rely on any divided state in order to be recognized or realized.

I am already Self-Recognized & Self-Realized.

I love The Holy Witnessing Reality that IS what I am.

In the recognition of being no state, I now correctly use my power to create, choosing to forgive and accept any present embodied state, that before from a divided state, I could not forgive or accept.

I love that I can lose MySelf in any state, and then return back to MySelf, unharmed, unencumbered.

No state defines Me or confines Me.

I love that I “have” the Wholly Witnessing Reality that Is, because It IS It, and I am exactly like It.

I have Everything I need, because I am not dependant on anything to be the Everything that I am.

I love MySelf,

I bless MySelf,

and I bless My world.

I am, we are; creating holy created creations. 💝

The creation of the Just-Mind is exactly like Its Just Creator-Mind that can only BE ItSelf. It does not entertain false notions of being something “other” than ItSelf.

It is Absolutely Just and it knows nothing other than being Just.

Nowhere does the Just-Mind project injustice because it does not know injustice. It only sees, hears, speaks, feels and perceives with a Just Mind.

It is a Just-Created Mind of a Just-Creator Mind.

But when the Just Mind forgets itself as ItSelf, Its True Identity falls from grace. In this fall, it comes to believe It can be something other than Just, something other than what IT already IS.

But it cannot be something other than ItSelf. It is of Just Mind, (not unjust mind) when it remembers ItSelf Correctly. In the correction, It remembers ItSelf as the Just Mind, created by the Just Creator Mind.

In this Light of Truth, all the mis-creations of injustice that were mis-created by the mistaken identify of the Just Mind, (believing ItSelf unjust), will disappear forever.

The Just Mind that made ItSelf into something other than itself, & then projected its fear & guilt upon a made-up world where both justice & injustice are believed to be in conflict, assumed as real, will have no more delusions about ItSelf, and in Great Happiness, will be returned back to Its Rightful Place; Its Just Place; exactly like the Just Creator-Mind created It to do and be.

This is the new Day of Justice.

Music to Mine Ears, 👂
And Beauty to Mine Eyes. 👀

Nina Mountain.

I am that Mountain,
Of Infinite Power & Majesty

The Wonder of The Promised Land;
My Father so dearly Loves.

He gave His Special Blessing,

For His One and Only Love.

A Relationship Born in Freedom.

And named It Nina Mountain.

My Father & I are One in Truth.

Blessings upon Blessings.

We shall Know the Truth,
And the Truth
Shall move all mountains.
🏔️ 🏔️🏔️🏔️🏔️🏔️🏔️🏔️🏔️🏔️🏔️
-Nina (Mountain of Truth)

In God Whom I Respect,
I will take notice through Your Eye & Ear, when people try to talk without a listener, disagree with opposition, correct or attack someone appearing as wrong or bad, or cut off the words of others.

Let them try. Let them try.

I will recognize their words of opposition or “know-it-allness” as a non-threatening state of resistance and desire appearing within You, for I see with You, and AS You, that any state of resistance or desire is free to appear in Our Shared Being of Your Word; Your Knowledge.

But in time, these people will predictably desire Your Knowledge that can only be found in You, and that I have respectfully embodied.

For Your Word, alone, commands to be respected and known above any other knowledge.
I have respectfully won the sweet victory of Your Knowledge
with You by my side.

In God as my Fearless Power,
I will take notice through Your Eye and Your Ear, when people try to control others, try to coerce others, or try to threaten others.

Let them try. Let them try.

I will recognize their words & actions of opposition as a non-threatening state of resistence & desire appearing within You, for I see with You, and AS You, that any state of resistance or desire is free to appear within Our Shared Fearless Power.

But in time, they will predictably desire Your Fearless Power that can only be found in You, and that I have fearlessly embodied.

For Your Power, alone, commands to be feared above all other power.
I have fearlessly won the sweet victory of Your Fearless Power
with You be my side.

In God as my Beloved, Special Friend, I will take notice through Your Eye and Your Ear, when people try to get praise or attention from others, or try to set themselves apart to make themselves uniquely special in the eyes of others.

Let them try. Let them try.

I will recognize their need to get special-friendships through others, as a non-threatening state of resistence & desire appearing within You, for I see with You and AS You, for any state of resistance or desire is free to appear within Our Shared Friendship.

But in time, they will predictably desire Your Loving Friendship that can only be found in You, and that I have lovingly embodied.
For Your Love, alone, commands to be “The Only Friend” above all other ‘friends’.
I have lovingly won the sweet victory of Your Special Friendship
with You by my side.

Nina – the Mountain of True Knowledge, Fearless Power & Loving Friendship.

From ignorant mind (false wrappings)
To Awakened Mind (The Real Gift):

Come My Dear,
After imagined centuries & ages,
After countless exhaustive beginnings & endings,
It’s now time to take rest.
Notice in curiousity & in trust
Just how valueless,
Is this vain desert mirage
Where the poor and powerless
Come to seek oasis
But never to fulfill That unquenchable thirst.

Let go of everything, My Dear.
Time to accept all that is not,
And rest in peace & solitude.
Be faithful; be expectant For a full revealing,
A Joy, a Love, a Beauty
Forever True and Infinitely Real
Being This Gift,
From this Boundless Ocean of Grandeur
Created just for you:
The realized Awakened Mind.

Praise be to Thee, O my most merciful Spirit, for remembering me in this supplication to know & love only Thee, whereby the Fragrance of Thy Knowledge is diffusing and the Ocean of Thy Grace is surging. I bear true witness that Thou art potent to do as Thou pleasest. No God is there but Thee, the Almighty, the All-Knowing, the All-Wise.

Bahá’u’lláh

Selections from Days of Remembrance (p.14)

The first council in God‘s love is to possess a pure, kindly and radiant heart, that it may be the ancient, imperishable and everlasting sovereignty that it was created and intended to be; in Sovereignty.

This is the age beyond ages of the Blessed Perfection, and this is the time beyond time, of the Revelation of the Greatest Name.

This is the century beyond centuries, of the fulfilment in God, immersed & embodied in God; seeing only God, hearing only God, knowing and worshiping the One Holy Relationship in Loving communion in One Holy Creation.

This is the age, beyond ages, of the Sun of the Horizons and the beautiful springtime, born anew in holiness; the Eternal One.

Boundless Treasure is found in the hand of the King of Kings and the Creator of creators.

On behalf of the Voice of Truth, salvation is a decision right now to SEE & HEAR truly, in the Right Mind of God, where all the holy Sisters & Brothers of God are presently SAFE & SECURE, celebrating in eternal holiness, while what is “believed” to be real and true; a separated mind and world of judgement, made in guilt & fear, where bodies seems to roam in search for truth.

In truth, the separation never happened, and what the unreal body’s eyes seem to see is a never-ending insane masquerade where forms of love & hate both appear to exist.

As God is My Witness, choosing now to join in Love, to SEE with Real Eyes, the Real World of True Creation, of Eternal Peace , Love & Happiness; leaving behind all the lies of a world without real meaning, that was “made” in false judgment, to distract & deceive, but never granted true life-existence.

The truth is always true, and the false is always false.

Blessings to ALL, God & the Sonship, in Gods Holy Name.

True Creation is ALL there is in truth; Infinitely Beautiful & Loving, shining in Light & Love, Eternally & Forever.

It is, and I AM the Way, the Light, & The Life. 💝⭐️💝🥳😍👏😁🥰😘🤩

IN THE NAME

OF ABSOLUTE FREEDOM,

I DECLARE

ABSOLUTE INDEPENDENCE:

-from defending or attacking any “form” of KNOWLEDGE: true or false.

-from defending or attacking any “form” of LOVE: painful or pleasurable; negative or positive.

-from defending or attacking any “form” of BEAUTY: good-bad-right-wrong.