Author: Nina Krebbers

High Frequency Beings cannot be seen by lower frequency beings. High frequencies vibrate at the level of Divine Love, which is in unity with Divine Will. When a divine spark remembers its True Reality, its only desire is to stay aligned with itself in its true frequency of Divine Love.

Self Responsibility in Action

I RELEASE from my fields the desires & expectations others wish FOR me, (because they want me to be or to have what they haven’t yet acknowledged or accepted within themselves)
(Others want for me to do what they want, to do what is right for them, be agreeable, know what they know, to instruct, inform & correct me just so I can be safe, peaceful, wise, healthy & happy.)
I am the only one who gets to decide what I want for myself, what I want to do for myself, what I want to agree with, what I want to be, how I want to feel, what I want to know, and what I want to have & to hold within myself. I allow myself to hold my own desires within myself, and receive those desires for myself.
I RELEASE from my fields the desires & expectations others wish FROM me; (because they want me to give them that which they have not yet acknowledged, accepted & given to themselves).
(to give them my understanding, my agreement, my acknowledgement, my validation, my approval, my agreement, my appreciation, my attention, my respect, my power, my acceptance, my time, my space, my connection, my support, my joy, my happiness, my excitement, my love)
I am the only one who gets to decide what I want to acknowledge, accept, & desire from myself. I hold my own desires and/or fears within myself. I allow myself to receive in the world the desires/fears I hold for myself within myself. I am responsible for my reality.

I RELEASE from my fields all the desires I wish FOR others & release all the desires I expect FROM others.
(I want for others to be fulfilled, peaceful, content, self-reliant, responsible, accepting & happy. I want them to give me love, acknowledgement, consideration, understanding, appreciation, encouragement, compassion, acceptance, honesty, & respect. I want others to be open, trusting, understanding & accepting of me & all my decisions & actions I make for myself.)
Others actually get to decide what they desire/fear for themselves & from themselves. They get to decide how they want to be, how they want to feel, & what they want to give to me or withhold from me. I allow them to have their own feelings, make their own decisions, and take their own actions. It is not my responsibility or business to want anything for them, or from them. It is not for me to question their judgements about my feelings, beliefs, decisions or actions. They are responsible for their reality, & am I responsible for mine.
I RETRIEVE from the world all the pieces of me I have given away, and lovingly hold them within myself. They are all I have ever wanted and hoped for in myself, for myself. I give to myself all the wisdom & gifts that flow within my soul’s essence, and to be open, trusting, & accepting of all my feelings & decisions I make for myself.
I am in gratitude to have & to hold within my soul’s Light Essence, the treasures of love, happiness, peace, trust, honesty, support, wisdom, connection, appreciation, consideration, devotion, radiance, strength, certitude, power, safety, honor, respect, stillness, grace, beauty. It is my privilege, my right & my responsibility to hold, activate & anchor these radiant gems within my divine river of Light & shine them for myself and the world.

From Challenge to Solution

From Challenge to Solution.

Why do challenges in life keep happening to me? What am I to ‘cast’ away and ‘let go’ of? What have I done to have ‘gone astray’? What specifically is ‘unseemly’ talk & thought? What are ‘idle fancies & vain imaginings’?
What is not worthy of my focus & attention but always steals it away?
The answers to these questions stem from fear. I am afraid for some reason, and I have used a fearful strategy in life to cover up that fear. Following, are 4 basic fearful rules I’ve lived by, & have been using to get rid of fear, but actually continue to summon all the challenges into my life.

1. Holding responsibility to live a life that others are wanting for me, (to be happy, safe, competent, smart, strong, independent, empowered, serenity) because if I don’t, I’m afraid to feel their feelings, as well as mine. (dis-connection from our Essence)

2. Holding responsibility to give others what they want/expect from me (my happiness, love, acknowledgement, service, support, assistance, attention, validation, generousity, gratitude, connection, loyalty, dependability, understanding, warmth, hospitality) because if I don’t, I’m afraid to feel their feelings, as well as mine. (disconnection from our Essence)

3. Placing responsibility on others to live a life that I’m wanting for them (to be happy & secure, loved & content, self-reliant, self- responsible, empowered, hopeful & grateful) because if they don’t, I’m afraid to feel my feelings as well as theirs. (dis-connection from our Essence)

4. Placing responsibility on others to give me what I’m expecting & wanting from them (humility, honesty, kindness, love, understanding, acknowledgment, acceptance, respect, consideration and support) because if they don’t, I’m afraid to feel my feelings as well as theirs. (dis-connection from our Essence)

SOLUTION:

I happily let go & cast away all this unseemly talk & thought, all these idle fantasies & vain imaginings that keep me disconnected from my own Beautiful Essence. I happily let go of all responsibilities that others have placed on me to hold, or that I placed on others to hold. These rules of obedience are not worthy of my attention. I gather, attach & hold only that which is mine, attending to loving my own Divine Light. This is my one and only Responsibility. I reconnect with my Inner Essence of Light & Love. It is my Divine Trusted Treasury House that holds all the vibrations of connection, love, peace, safety & support etc, that I will ever want & need. This Living Light flows through my heart, rises up to the Heart of Source, & reaches down to the Heart of Earth. I take firm hold onto the cord of My Luminous Garment. I drink from the Ocean of My Knowledge. I soar in the atmosphere of My Love. I immerse myself in the well-spring of My Breath. I model & demonstrate to myself & the world all the Gifts, Wisdom & Mastery I hold in my All-Glorious Essence.

To Give.

The first teaching I remember was about ‘giving to others’. It meant that I acknowledge others, have consideration for others, show acceptance & appreciation for others. It was about showing my respect to others. It was about giving my attention to others. It was about listening & trusting others.  I gave away my most precious gifts ‘for’ the benefit of others. I possessed powerful gifts, and I was very good at using them, for when I gave them away, I could temporarily make others feel loved, safe, trusted, accepted, respected, acknowledged and appreciated. I, in turn, would feel my gifts through them. I also learned that if I withheld my gifts from others,  I would feel their negative feelings.   They were not able to locate and use their own inner gifts while they were relying on mine. This was a recipe for self-depletion.

As a child, I was taught & convinced to give my gift of ‘self-consideration’ away to my parents, my siblings, then later to my teachers. This later expanded to friends who told me they needed my consideration.  Their experience of pain & disappointment, (or worse: anger & rage) would be my fault, and I would end up feeling fear, guilt & regret. I had lost my power and safety.

‘Giving to others’ meant giving away my gift of ‘self-appreciation’.  It meant giving away self-acknowledgment, self-acceptance, and self-respect.  I began to feel unsupported and doubtful, for I had given away the gift of ‘self-support’ and ‘self-trust’.  I began to judge others secretly, for I had given away the gift of ‘self-acceptance’ & ‘self -compassion’. I was told that it was selfish to ignore others, not be available, not to listen or show my appreciation for others. This activity over time had given me a deep inner ache.  It was an indication that I abandoned myself.  I became overly sensitive to what others felt.

But I had also been drawn to the quotes that state, “you can only love others to the degree that you love yourself’, and ‘you can never lose, what you truly possess’.   My true gifts that I thought I had given to others, I still have access to. They are not lost forever. They have been cultivated & nurtured within my soul. They are rightfully mine, and I know that they shine brightly. I have mastered them.  But I had not been acknowledging them as mine.  I now realize its time to take them all back.  I cannot truly acknowledge the world if I do not acknowledge myself.  I cannot truly appreciate, accept and trust the world if I do not appreciate, accept and trust myself.  I cannot give consideration to the world if I do not first give myself consideration.   If I possessed these qualities in the first place, and I can never truly lose them, then I can retrieve them anytime I so choose and shine them within myself.  These beautiful higher vibrational gems are mine.  I choose now to retrieve them. I want them back.  I use the power of my intent to retrieve and activate the energies of my soul’s essence, including but not limited to, self-love, self-trust, self-respect, self-acknowledgement, self-acceptance and self-consideration. And so it is. So be it. It is done. Thank You.Divine River

“Worship God; ye have none other God beside Him”

What does this title mean?  How do we worship?  What does it look like? What is God?  What will worshiping God bring us?  What do we want anyways?  What are we LOOKING for?

Speaking from my own experience, I have realized over time what I want. I want relief from my own constant outward search for Love, Truth, Acceptance, Abundance, Guidance, Certainty, Righteousness, Happiness & Beauty.  The world is not going to directly bring these things to me. I’ve tried, and the result has been fleeting; leading to disappointment, fear of loss, suffering and more searching. So, I’ve learned that the world is not my source of all that I am looking for. What the world is, is a reflection of the Divine, but if I don’t know that “I am the Divine”, then it will only reflect who I ‘claim’ myself to be. If I claim myself to be lacking love, that is what I will find: a lack of love. If I claim myself to be not good enough, then that is what I will find: reasons why I’m not good enough.  I will never find & know the Light of Worthiness, Truth, Acceptance, Guidance, Righteousness, Abundance and Beauty in the world if I agree to be lacking them. So, in pausing this outward search, and turning quiet for a moment, I realize that all I have ever searched for, I already have. I am Divine. I HAVE all that is Divine.  These eternal gems can only be found right here and right now within my own Inner Being; in my own Divine River of Light.  I define God as that Divine River of Light, and I am an embodied spark of that River.

In Baha’u’llah’s book, “The Book of Certitude”, he speaks of the appearance of an Eternal Being, who came after Noah, the holy person of Salih. This man said to his people, “Oh my people, Worship God, ye have none other God beside Him”. This was His way of summoning the people to the ‘river of everlasting life’, but the people did not understand what they were being asked to do. They did not understand that they were being asked to return to their own Divine Essence, within their own Hearts, to connect with that part of themselves that lacks nothing.  It would have made more sense to have said, “Oh People, devote your  hearts and minds to your own Inner Light. It is a vertical line that connects you with the Higher Realms, with your Light Team, on the level of your soul & your body’s spirit.  Remain in this vertical connection at all times, stay authentic, and model integrity. You have no other Source to all that you search for but your own Source; your own Divine Line.”

When I reconnect with my inner Divine Line, I remember I am safe.  I call on my Angels, Archangels, Spirit Guides, Advisors, Councillors, and all Beings of the Light. It’s time to be authentic. I can unload all my sorrows, my shame, my grief, my losses, my anger, my fears here. I allow full expression of myself.  I have loving permission to yell, to cry, to scream, to wimper, to mourn, to be everything I can’t be in the world. After the veils have lifted, I return to a loving, peaceful state of consciousness.  I call this the City of God.  It is full of Light.  It sparkles & radiates celestial beauty all around. I ask to simply feel a deeper and deeper sense of gratitude for all that I am and all the assistance I am receiving. I am welcomed here, and honored here.  Together, we are One, and we are happy.  We feel a sense of communion, fulfillment, contentment, and wonderment.  There is relaxation, and total acceptance here.  It’s full of mysticism, enchantment, and enlightenment.  We acknowledge our Divinity, our sense of Harmony, Grace and Perfection. It is in this Placeless Place, this Sanctified Sanctuary, where I truly belong, and where my Heart’s desires originate.  I have no other wish than to know who I am here.  As I remember that I have everything within my own Divine Line, and I am in need of nothing, then all that is Loving and Peaceful will effortlessly and automatically trickle down and show up in my physical world.  I need have no worries, no anxiety, no concerns as my life unfolds.  To the degree that I have claimed & embraced all that I am here in the formless, to that degree I will experience all that I am in form.  It’s up to me.

So, in conclusion, this is how I worship God. I have none other God beside Him.

May you all find your way back to your own river of everlasting Life…. blessings from the Upper Realms.

The Game of Life

Do you know who you really are?

You may be playing the game of the ‘spiritual life’, the ‘domestic life’, or the ‘professional life’.  Would you consider asking yourself that all endeavours that include a ‘you’, are all part of the game?  It’s a wonderful life, this game of life, is it not?

To help you come to a deeper awareness of who or what you really are, ask yourself, “Do I know who Nina is?”  You may believe I am somebody ‘out there’ separate from you, and in the conventional, illusory game of the world, that would appear true.  But consider asking yourself, ‘where do all thoughts, memories, emotions, associations, and perceptions come from?’  If they come from ‘you’, then where am ‘I’?  Sit with that a minute.  What am ‘I’ when you are not thinking or perceiving?  Can you be willing to see that there never was an ‘I’ separate from a thought or from a perception?  Would you be open to seeing that all your thoughts about me, and other’s thoughts about me, all come from nowhere, and only ‘appear’ in the form of thoughts, memories, emotions, associations and perceptions in your mind? There is really nobody that all this is happening to.  It’s simply happening, and it’s all happening from imagination.

What emotions come up when you consider that all you believed to be true or false, was simply a string of nobody’s never-ending thoughts, lined up, one after another, after another, going around and around, with no beginning or no end?  Consider that they have no relationship to each other, and they are not the cause of future thoughts, nor are any of them the effect of past thoughts. Can you be open to the possibility that it is the job of the mind mechanism to give an otherwise non-purposeful meaningless world, purpose and meaning?  What feelings come up, and is there a willingness to go there?  Or is there a resistance to those feelings?

What would your whole world look like, if the belief in a ‘you’ wasn’t there?  Well, nothing would change in the outward view, just the perception of it.  The body would continue to move, and complete it’s functions.  It would eat, drink, walk, sleep, etc. just like before, but there wouldn’t be any belief that there is a ‘you’ doing it.  Doer-ship would not arise. There would be no more taking credit, giving credit, taking blame or giving blame.  The mind would supply thoughts of a practical nature in order to complete functional, activities or writing, reading, driving, and other mind tasks. Without the seeking pleasure or avoiding pain, life would simply arise spontaneously, as it always has, but now the mind would simply accept it as it was happening, and not conclude what any of it means.  Feelings would arise, play themselves out, and then be gone.  Over time, a stability would settle in.  More and more contentment and joy would be experienced.  Nothing and nobody would be ‘out there’ any longer.  All in all, love and beauty would come into awareness like never before, and there would be a knowingness that it’s all happening spontaneously, for no purpose, except that it IS happening and it’s a celebration of your Divine Essence playing the game of life.

I Call On Thee, O Heavenly One,

Dear Holy Spirit,
Hear my prayers. I am desiring to allow the beliefs of separate-self go. I am inflicted with this disease of mind that someone can hurt me, can inflict pain or suffering onto me, or can control and limit my happiness. I am inflicted with the belief that the thoughts I think I think, belong to me. Please return me to Your Holy Presence now. I only want to be with You. You are my only Desire of the Heart. I run to You. I snuggle into the Sanctuary of Your Beauty. I close my eyes to the world, and rest my ears to the sounds of duality. I cling to your Holy Garment and abide with You always. This is my Desire, and this is my One Prayer. To return to the Home I’ve never left. Please Holy Spirit, help me to see and to hear using Single Vision & Single Hearing. I call on Thee. I abide in Thee. I want only Thee. The world holds nothing that I want. I only want You. Please grant me the experience of only You. Pain and suffering is of the split mind, and this is a fantasy; one that will continue for as long I desire it. I am asking Your Divine Master, to grant me all the good things that True Forgiveness can bring. Thank You from the deep recesses of my heart and soul. Thank You.
Dear Holy Child,
The reason you are not experiencing My Peace is a result of some past belief that was hidden in your mind, and that belief is now becoming visible to your mind. It rests on the premise that you are separate from Me. In Truth, You can not hurt, or be hurt. You can not suffer, or make suffering. You can not lose, nor be lost. You can not truly be guilty or make guilty. It’s a dream you have played, but as these feelings and thoughts begin to rise, (and they will all rise), simply let them come now. You are safe to allow all things to come. They may startle you, they may make you afraid, and may even seem to cause you to doubt yourself. Be not afraid to go through these experiences. I am with you, and you are completely safe and sound. Let all things come and they will all go. It’s that simple. You are my Precious and Favored One. Let the fear come. It’s ok my Child. It’s all going to be OK. Enjoy all the things I have coming for You. These are your Rewards coming on the Wings of Heaven. Rejoice Now. You are Entitled, Have Always been Entitled to My Happiness for You, because I created You Happy, and I have created You Free. Remember, nothing can interfere with Your Happiness & Freedom unless You desire it. I only Give My Love to You. It’s all that I know how to do. You must accept it for Yourself, to receive the Benefits. Remember, as this Truth of Love dawns on your Holy Mind, there will be nothing else that You will receive. Blessings to You my Dearest Love. I love You.
Your Holy Spirit.

THERE IS NO PROBLEM

THERE  IS  NO  PROBLEM

There is no problem to solve; I am the Solution in God, all Solution is in God. I AM is God.

There is nothing to do; I Rest in God, all Rest in God. I AM is God.

There is nowhere to live; I Live in God, all Lives in God. I AM is God.

There is nowhere to go; I Walk in God, all Walk in God. I AM is God.

There is nothing to seek; I am Found in God, all is Found in God. I AM is God.

There is nothing to question; I am the Answer in God, all is the Answer in God. I AM is God.

There is no reason to hurry; I am Still in God, all is Still in God. I AM is God.

There is nothing to say, or talk about; I am Listening & Silent in God, all is Silence in God. I AM is God.

There is nothing to fear; I am Love & Secure in God, all is Love & Secure in God. I AM is God.

There is nothing to remember; I am Remembered in God, all is Remembered in God. I AM is God.

There is nothing to regret or reminisce about; I am Present in God, all is Presence in God. I AM is God.

There is nothing wrong/nothing to resist; I am Perfect in God, all is Perfection in God. I AM is God.

There is nothing to desire; I am the Desire in God, all is the Desire in God. I AM is God.

There is nothing to judge as separate; I am One in God, all is One in God. I AM is God.

There is nothing to believe or disbelieve; I am Known in God, all is Known in God. I AM is God.

There is nothing to protect; I am Safe in God, all is Safe in God. I AM is God.

There is no conflict; I am Calm in God, all is Calm in God. I AM is God.

There are no emotions to possess, cling to, or resist;  I am Happy, Joyful, & Peaceful in God, all is Happy in God, all is in God. I AM is God.

There is nobody to serve; to teach or to learn from; I am Servant, Teacher, Learner in God, all is Served, Taught and Learned in God. I AM is God.

There is no one with which to relate; I am the Holy Relationship in God, all is the Holy Relationship in God. I AM is God.

There is nothing to create or complete; I am Created & Complete in God; all is Created & Complete in God. I AM is God.

There are no thoughts of ‘Who am I?’; I am Undefined, Eternal in God, all is Undefined, Eternal in God. I AM in God.

True Reality is in God. All Praise is in God.

Today belongs to love. Let me not fear.

Resistance to ‘accepting what is’ occurs because there is fear. The fear is because one is disconnected with their own Divine Essence. The strategy becomes convincing others to agree to improve/change; wanting happiness for them, or needing to get happiness from them. It can look like others convincing me to agree to improve/change; wanting happiness for me, or wanting me to give them happiness. These strategies are manipulative & a desperate attempt  to provide each other with love, security, support, connection, acceptance & safety.   Responsibility for receiving essence is placed onto others. Me onto them, or them onto me. Both are the same. They are both resistance to what is, both a resistance to supplying it for ourselves, within ourselves. Only our own essence within our Divine Light can provide what we truly want & need for ourselves.

For example, if I see & hear a child having a temper tantrum, and my impulse is to quiet the child in any way I know how, it is because I have interpreted the noise to be “fearful” or “annoying”. I have placed responsibility on the child to give me essence. This is resistance on my part.  If I have been ‘misunderstood’ by someone, and I feel attacked, my impulse would be to ‘correct’ her to make her understand me.  I have placed responsibility on her to give me essence.  This is resistance on my part.  If I believe a lover desires sex from me, and my impulse is to ‘please’, then I took on his responsibility for dissolving his fear, and sex is an attempt to give him essence. He has placed responsibility on me to give him essence. If I see or feel fear in others, and my impulse is to ‘fix it’, it is because I have disconnected from my own Divine Essence.  It’s time to re-connect.

All these scenarios are strategies to re-connect with our own essence.  I want to stop a baby’s cry, I believe he’s in distress, and I want my fear to go away.  I want to fix a misunderstanding, I believe my brother may attack, and I want my fear to go away.  I want to stop my lover’s feelings of rejection/attack; I believe I’m guilty, and I want my fear to go away. I want to stop the sickness/pain; I believe I am guilty, and I want my fear to go away. The only thing that will make fear go away is to stop seeking essence in others or having others seek it in you.  There is no peace in trying to own essence that does not belong to you or me.

So, a change in perception of things would change how I see those things.  When I hear a child express a temper tantrum, I will not interpret it as a thing that must be stopped just because it seems to upset me.  I will let it be. I will not resist. I will accept it as I accept my own love essence.

When I feel ‘misunderstood’ by my brother, I will not interpret it as a thing that now must be ‘understood’ just because it seems to upset me.  I will let it be.  I will not resist. I will accept it as I accept my own love essence.  I will accept it with love.

When my lover appears to be experiencing fear, and believes sex will release that fear, I will not take that to mean I need do something.  Sex is ‘a manipulative strategy’ when used to cover up fear. I will look at my own guilt and fear, and I will let go of the need to please. I accept my own love essence & I accept my decisions. I will accept what is with love.

When I feel sick or see someone who appears sick or in pain, I will not interpret it as a thing that shouldn’t be happening, or a thing that is ‘bad’ because it seems to upset me.  I will not resist. I will accept it as I accept my own love essence.   I will accept it just as it is with love.

I will not act when motivated out of fear or guilt. I will reconnect with my Essence. I will accept it as I accept my own love essence.   I will dismiss the impulse to react from the place of resistance. I will accept my own love essence. When all resistance has subsided, stillness, peace and contentment will be mine, and I will extend Love from  that place of Love. Today belongs to love.  Let me not fear.