When a feeling of psychological violence, (shame, guilt or dread), flashes within you like a lightening strike, Stop and notice what it’s really for. Breathe & pause. Suspend the story. Suspend thought. Take all the time you need to deeply feel into this violent threat. Don’t obey what the enslaved rule-bound mind tries to tell you to get you “safe” from “harm”. At this point, the fearful mind IS the harm. Notice where the threatening story acts as a coercive, interfering device to stop you from breaking through your transformational, alchemical awakening process. See how this violent emotion in your beingness attempts to scare you into placing the mind into a frozen state of separation. But separation is impossible for You. You are not a projection of separation. Separation is a spell; a false notion of a self that arises when lightening strikes the Heart of Wisdom & Compassion and sends fear into you.
Relax now.
Observe that pain now with wisdom and compassion. That lightening strike is offering a Gift to you; to awaken you from the spell of separation so you can remember the Eternal Wholeness that already is. The strike of fear was just a false threat that tried to beguile itself into believing it was you.
See this.
The feeling of fear of separation has no power to divide or threaten Eternal Wholeness. The belief there’s a you that can be threatened is just a fleeting thought. It’s what’s happening for no one within the Eternal Innocent Wholeness that is. Wholeness is whole and is all there is; so nothing can threaten its Reality.
The following statements come from beliefs of a made-up self that lives in fear of lies it believes are its truth:
“You need to earn your goodness. You are lovable only when beneficial to others. Sometimes you deserve kindness and sometimes you don’t. You get punished when your repressed pain leaks out sideways or violently. You are selfish when you accept more than the rules deem you accept. It’s your fault when you get reprimanded & punished. You need to deny yourself any pain of abuse when going against a rule that threatens other people’s safety. Their anger at you is justified”.
See how these violent statements attempt to perpetuate strikes within your heart to get you to recoil and divide you from Wholeness. They keep you small and invisible.
But no amount of “striking, recoiling or smallness” can snatch you away from Divine Innocence. See that every “strike” and every “recoil” are just attempts at perpetuating an illusion. It’s just what’s happening. It’s Wholeness too. Everything is Wholeness.
See the deception, but do not believe it. See past the immediate desire to feel guilty for the “strike”. See past the meaning you make from “recoiling & hiding”. Feel beyond recoiling: that fearful need to protect yourself by pushing all feelings away.
Feel beyond the urgent fear to out-maneuver the next strike against you; to covertly ignore it; the desire to avoid it; to pretend it’s not there; the panic to run from it.
Remember what every strike was for. Lean into Your Loving Truth. Meet the physical, emotional and mental trembling with wisdom and compassion. Drop the story; you don’t need it. Quietly and assuredly notice the deeper truth within you trying to reveal to you the haunting feeling of the strike of separation. Watch and wait as Wholeness reveals Her Love for you in the depths of the violent threat.
This is not the time to give your trust to a threat. This is not the time to give authority to a strike of separation. Take all the time you need to explore Your Inherant Goodness by feeling into that haunting feeling. Be fearless with it for its full duration. Nurture the Powerful Mystery of Wholeness growing inside you. See how mental and emotional fears of separation attempt to manipulate you to be afraid. Look beyond the situation and the loved ones involved. They are not who you believe they are. They are projections of hostages to false belief. Look past separation’s projections.
At first glance, the feeling-strike of separation is the most frightening and most debilitating. But deep within its core, a gift lies hidden. And that gift is what you really are. Wait for it while you directly experience the raw energy of pain. Notice the emptiness beyond the structure of language. In deep surrender, wait for Wisdom & Compassion to reveal Her Wholeness to you as you reach deep within your very being. You do not need to manipulate or defend yourself. Just feel the Entirety that Wholeness is offering to you in the spirit of faith and trust. Be watchful for a perceptual shift.
You are the spark of Everything setting ItSelf free from the belief in bondage. You are the freedom to let all stories be just as they are.
You are the freedom to feel the pain that was never real. You are free to re-name it and remember Your Un-nameable Wholeness.
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