When the ‘I’ was not given the opportunity to think, feel and relate within its own inner frame of reference; and it was repeatedly bombarded by the divided reality of the “authority of other” on what the ‘I’ should think, feel and how it should relate, then that ‘I’ silently began to suffer from the inside out.
Why suffer now?
Because after decades and decades of sacrifice & suffering for simple recognition from other, this ‘I’ now lives with the impossibility of ever getting it. But at the same time, it has forgotten its own inner frame of authority of the Friend.
Exiling the idea of “authority of other” from the mind & heart means facing a great disturbance and disruption to the ‘I’. It also means a complete annihilation of the very idea of ‘I’.
The ‘I’ now stands at a crossroad, at an edge of a cliff, holding on to the inner authority of The Friend.
It is ready to plunge the poisoned mind and depleted heart into the Great Unknown; allowing the Friend to reset its entire Being back to truth; back to the One Reality before any idea of ‘outer authority’ ever came to be.
Nina’s Nuances 