Thoughts of Insight

The search for love hit many brick walls searching for a “spiritual community” where I could call home and finally feel loved & fulfilled;, (because it wasn’t found in friendship or romantic relationship). There was always something missing.

But all I got was “Not this…keep going”. I felt disappointed over and over again.

The place I was led to, was a place of “lost hope” but kept me searching for the next thing. That desire to find “A PERMANENT HOME” kept the search alive. My intuition kept showing me “not this” when all I wanted was to find deep rest.

“Keep going”, I heard.

The deep feeling of “being forsaken” followed “me.”

The purpose of the “valley of search” was never meant to lead “me” to a love object, a power object, a soul object, or a power spot, but, rather, to see there IS, already no “me”. The “me” doesn’t exist. Never has, never will, even though it feels so real.

Seeing this, desire to keep searching was fulfilled. There is no resting in peace unless and until the illusion of separation comes to a final end.

It is now recognized that the fulfillment of the heart is not found by a self, as a self, to be an enlightened self, but, rather, in the realization that self is a concept built upon a belief in separation, and that belief is what births the desire to search for the Blessed Beloved Beauty as a separate self.

“You” —- as a separate individual — – is a fantasy. There is no separate individual already. It doesn’t exist; therefore, all searching from this premise is in vain.

The valley of search is an essential journey though, and cannot be escaped, until it is clearly seen that there never was a real “me & you” that searches. This realization is the key to the love that lives in YOU – AS YOU.

The Blessed Beauty IS No-Thing, already, shining as wholesomeness, as this Blessed Spot, Here, Now.

Separation is a fantasy. There is no separate “you” inside a body that is “yours” sharing a world with real “separate others” inside bodies that are “theirs”.

No one exists already to have a body or to call it “their” own. That’s called possession. This is KEY to realize.

There is no separate possessor of bodies.
Ownership is a concept and feeling of separation.

Love is ever-present, already, appearing as “searching”. No one searches.

This can’t be skipped over, denied, manipulated, rationalized, justified, or spiritualized. It must be obviously seen with pure clarity.