Direct Experience

Who I am?

I am awareness. I experience MySelf  through direct experience.  Experience gives to Me the awareness that I am, and I know MySelf through the experience of being aware of being aware.

But, there is this ‘object’ of experience called ‘thought’ that seems to have taken Awareness from Me and projected it upon objects. (I-thought being the main object). Thought has assumed upon itself to be ‘decision maker, director, & dictator’.

It says ‘I am a person in a body in a world’.

It interprets all experience for Me and insists that all objects of experience obey what ‘it’ thinks is happening. This whole system of thought (in the “I-thought”) began when I accepted the belief “I am a separate person in a body in a world of objects”. I took on the  “I-thought” as my own, through the repetitive communication of the world of ‘belief’.

When an objective experience shows up on stage, (like a belief, idea, image, opinion, story, memory, concept, feeling, sensation, or perception) ‘I-thought’ will simultaneously and out-rightly reject that experience as complete & perfect as is: Direct Experience of Awareness being aware of ItSelf). Rather, it will call the object a name : ‘good-right-desirous or bad-wrong-fearful‘   Then, it will take the controlling position and attempt to fulfill that desire or avoid that fear by using the body as its puppet. I-Thought is very demanding & driven that way. This mode of operation is how the I-thought self-perpetuates itself. 

This imaginary ‘entity’ will go to any length to reject present experience, to keep its good-bad positions in play, and stay in charge. The show can become amazingly satisfying or completely destructive & insane, but it doesn’t care about that. It’s crazy and doesn’t care about ME or the body. It just wants ME to continue to hold the belief that “‘I’ exist in ‘my’ own right as a separate and limited human being” and not catch on to the fact that I, Awareness, is acting on behalf of a deceptive thought that isn’t even real.  I have been duped by a thought!!  

How do I know all this?

I figured this out when I became willing and courageous enough to detach from ‘thought’ itself. I, Awareness, decided to give equal allowance to all objective experiences (pleasant & unpleasant) and accept them as equally valid, no matter what ‘thought’ had to say about them.  I have become aware that it is only ever ME, Infinite Awareness, I am experiencing; not objects.

I am not the object of thinking in time or space, or appearing on a stage.

I, Pure Awareness, entertained a mad idea that allowed MySelf to identifty with it, which became an “I-thought”.  Even though I got to live a temporary apparent existence (from thought’s point of view),  I was the Ever-Present Experiencing Element all along.  I am the Space in which ‘it’ all happens. But this ‘it’ is never truly found, because everything ‘it is’, is known by Me, Awareness.  I am the Infinite Transparent, Empty Knowingness in which I abide as Beingness ItSelf.

There is no more crazy ‘god’ in charge. ‘I am’ is the knowing element in all experience! And that is all that needs to be known.  With this understanding (through the maturity of the mind), I take my True Position as Pure Awareness and am shown that the I AM is all there ever was.

How did these objects of thought etc get ‘up’ on stage, and I am ‘watching it all’.  Wouldn’t that seem like duality right there?

Those are not really ‘objects’ of beliefs, ideas, concepts, images, memories, ideas or any other separate objects up there.  They are only ‘called’ objects.

From My point of view, I do not see any objects up on that stage, and I see no stage. Those are concepts of thought. They only seem to be objects when they were ‘seen’ from the “I-thought’s” point of view on that stage. As MySelf, there are no objects.

Well, what are those ‘things’ that were seen as objects from “I-thought’s” point of view, but are not really objects?

They are ME.  As a half-way stage, they could be called the direct experience of My intimate Self occurring through the mind’s energetic movement.  The show was like a temporary moving current within the Ocean of My Awareness. Words that can explain this activity would be called, ‘thinking, sensing, feeling and perceiving’. They are not TRULY these things, they are only ‘called’ these ‘things’.  They are all made of the same substance as MySelf.  As I declare MySelf as all there is, and when I see its all a play with a ‘make-believe director’ temporarily in control of it all, using the power of MySelf & belief to call the shots in its own made-up world, the whole show crumbles & falls into itself; the characters, the objects, the people, the drama and the whole theatre too. They only seemed to exist in their own right in the imagination of the I-thought, but I was there all along.   I am the ever-present element of all thinking.  And, all there is to thinking is the knowing.

I am that knowing.

As I know MySelf AS MYSELF, Awareness, I am at the same time withdrawing all power to thought. As I abide as MySelf, steadfastly and earnestly, and knowingly, being aware of MySelf, the workings of the objective ‘show’ are disassembled, taken down, destroyed, and finally realigned to be what always has been, Awareness being aware of ItSelf, Alone.

There never were the objects of thinking or objectified thoughts.

There never were the objects of sensing or objectified sensations.

There never were the objects of feeling or objectified feelings.

There never were the objects of perceiving, or objectified perceptions.

There never were separate objects or separate things at all.

There never were separate bodies.

There never was a separate world, with stars, planets, or a universe, or outside universes.  Those are not found in direct experience.

All that is found in Direct Experience is Awareness being aware. There was only ever My Infinite, Eternal Nature of Direct Experience, knowing MySelf, Being MySelf, Aware of MySelf, Awareness.

This is to KNOW the Wisdom, Love, & Beauty of MySelf.

The End……The Endless