I have detached from something I had always assumed was me.
These are thoughts and thought forms.
I see the desperate, strategizing thought forms appearing in my consciousness, but they are not on my side. They only pretend to be. They are not real. I see them lurking over here, over there. They are appearing inside and outside. With words, they try and convince me that they ARE me, that they are looking out for me, and that I need them. I hear what they want from me. They are warning me about all sorts of things. Do this. Do that. Don’t do this. Don’t do that. If only you had done that. What if you do this?” They make statements what I’m to do and to believe about myself. Sometimes they are sweet and encouraging, and sometimes horrid & punitive. If I don’t join them, it is because I am stupid, shameful, not good enough. If I do join them, they will help me to become successful, smart, and beautiful. They constantly remind me that they get the credit for my success, and that I’m to blame if I fail. But it’s too late to be unaware of them. I see them. I can no longer ‘not’ be aware. They pressure me to stay with them, to join them again. They make promises of the future, and tell me I could have a do-over, and I can have it all.
But I’m just not that gullible and foolish anymore to identify with them.
I have Awareness.
Now that I’m aware, I see these thought forms as unaware. They force, cajole, convince agreement to their statements, their conclusions. But I see their statements as silly conjectures and an ignorant game of lies. They state that they know what is best. They are relentless in their conviction of truth concepts. Their statements are positions to take, full of threats, demands, pressures, spells, perversions, fantasies and manipulations. Their agenda is to steer me along the ‘time’ continuum if I allow them. Their only agenda is to postpone the belief in time. Their only desire is to survive, to continue the monologue/dialogue, and to ensure that the unaware host stays unaware of its inevitable SELF-REALIZED AWARENESS. So, thoughts need the stage to continue. Their only purpose, is that the host dies unaware, because then ‘they’ (thought forms) do not die… they will simply pop up in another unaware host, who will still be, consequently, attached and identified with thought forms. An unaware host and it’s identification with thought forms are the perfect match that makes this world apparently exist.
I will not act on behalf of these thought forms, because there has been a breaking away of identifying with them. I, Awareness, knows what I am not. There is now a greater desire to Be AWARE. I see what the monologue is trying to do. I will simply witness. I see them now as a fantasy program. They are the constant, continuing element in this worldly existence. They want something from me that I am no longer desiring to give them, ….and that is My ATTENTION and my unquestioning BELIEF in them. The thought forms have plans to save people, to fix problems, and to achieve preferred outcomes. They push and force the agenda of worldly health, wealth and happiness. They want me to attend to them, believe in them, and do as they say, without resistence, without question!!. That insist I work hard for the future. They are resistence itself, and they beg me to join them in the resistence…or else I will be going down with them.
I, Conscious-Awareness, have a greater Agenda. On behalf of Awareness Itself, I am going to turn away with Gentle, Loving Presence, and leave these old friends alone. They are no longer my friends. They never were my friends. I recognize them, I can acknowledge them, and I can now celebrate the fact that I’m on to them.
I, Conscious-Awareness, am no longer living in ignorance of the secret agenda of thought forms. I am not so ready to engage in them. They only want a host’s ignorance. This is their only power over the host. They want to fool. They want to prey. Their fuel is my precious Attention. I will do the opposite and give my Attention to Divine Stillness, Conscious-Awareness. They will get bored and end the pursuit on me. They will leave me alone, and over time, they will wither and die. From time to time, I may engage in the resistence, in the warnings, the pleas, and the threats… But never will I stay there for too long. They are a dying species. I will be ready for their great last attempt on my awareness. I will remember WHO I AM. They have no real power over ME. Their threats mean nothing. I can relax in the Truth. I’ve got Sanity on my side now. I’ve got my Higher Power.
“Nothing real can be threatened. Nothing unreal exists. Herein lies the Peace of God.”
Nina’s Nuances 